Life Goes On

For those who have experienced a loss like my family just did you probably have an understanding of where I'm at. I'm back at work today, trying to return to life as normal. But how can the world continue as normal after losing someone like my dad? A part of me expected life to change for everyone.

During the funeral I talked about how my dad would want all of us to "keep on keeping on." To continue our ministries. To continue living our lives to bring glory to God. It feels odd; trying to go back to the way things were before. For the first 28 years of my life my dad was the one I would go to. Most of the time I would pretend to have a really good idea of what life was about, and we would talk about my ideas. He would constantly push me to take things further or challenge me when he disagreed. He hadn't been able to be that person for a couple of years, but something about the finality of his physical death makes me miss what we used to have more than I did while he was still with us.

I feel like I know what he would say; that my hope is found in Christ and that nothing can take that away. That bad thing are bound to happen and that stumbling blocks will continue to catch me up. But that I need to continuously pick my self up and keep on keeping on. I need to continuously redirect my focus onto Christ and do my best to live my life to His glory. I just wish that that was an easy thing to do.

My heart aches and I miss my dad. My world was changed because of him; both his life and his death. I'm just shocked that for the majority of the world life has gone on as if nothing has changed.