Hope

I've found myself in the situation lately where I have struggled to find hope in this life. I have already lost the man who has been my main support through out my life, and letting go has made me feel hopeless. My dad is still holding on, but there are signs that he getting ready to let go and claim his eternal reward. He would tell me that, in this world, we can only find hope in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That living for anything else will leave us empty and feeling hopeless. Today I'm having a very difficult time finding that.

I have friends who are hurting in ways that I cannot imagine. I won't go into what that is here, except to say that the pain is assaulting me from from there as well.

As a counselor I talk about ways to cope with these feelings and I understand that they will pass. But today I don't want to cope. I want it to go away. I don't want patches to get me through. I want solutions to make it better.

Today I am not strong. I'm broken.